Sing for the joy that's found in setting up the pins and knocking them down

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Holding On and Letting Go

It's not poetic justice
That has me waiting all this while
It's the way a loving father
Deals with his child

So this is how I'm learning
Holding on and letting go
Sometimes yes and sometimes no
It's sometimes yes, sometimes no

This is a favorite song of mine that often comes to me when I need it most. As I look upon surgery week for Eric, I want to cling to the miracle that I know God is capable of doing, but I also feel like I need to be strong and prepare for the disappointment of it not working out the way I have prayed it will. I want all the prayers that go up on Eric's behalf to be answered with a resounding heavenly, "Yes, it's fixed!" But I also know that God's answers are perfect and perfectly timed and that they may not be the answers that I so desperately want. So here I stand in between holding on and letting go, trying to find a comfortable place to rest for a while.